Monday MusingsA friend who'd moved back to France over a year ago asked recently when I'd move over to the land of cheese. When I'd quipped, 'I don't know, it depends', he complained that my answer hadn't changed in the last 3 and a half years.
Upon reflection, I started to wonder if what I am looking for in life isn't quite so achievable anymore? Some five years ago, I was three weeks away from meeting the person who helped me map out some of the most significant decisions in my life. Except, I didn't know it yet. What turned out to be a simple exchange and advice of a tenancy arrangement gone wrong resulted in my 10,000km journey to the West.
How things have changed since then, the world economy deflated and collapsed in a matter of months, a la Black Monday style circa 1987, the environment has gone somewhat bananas, the path of consumerism expanding by the minute, I could go on. It is well and good that man always has the benefit of hindsight to pontificate endlessly about how things 'should have' been done to prevent this or that. Man, for some reason have the innate ability to just let it happen over and over, perhaps blinded and consumed by instant gratification, I don't know.
While I pondered the thought of looking back wondering if that was all that I desired, just living in the ebb and flow of life, I couldn't decide if the worst choices were made as a result of indecisions. As God gave Eve the choice to have the apple, as a father lets his son into a store to pick one toy, as we decide between new experience or a better salary, the overwhelming multitude of choices and life options and demand for utility results in the everlasting quest for a perceived and perhaps self-deluded happiness that maybe, does not exist at all.
Ah what travesty you might say, 'i'm happy!' But are you really? Did Eve not wonder what would have happened if she didn't have the apple, or the boy who wondered if he should have picked the toy train or the tractor, or even ourselves as we try valiantly to calm or even silence that little voice in your mind,
'you should have picked the other one'.Funnily enough, it would be now obvious that what comes in tandem in such a situation is the devil of hindsight, and the eternal question of - 'What if'? It seems what lies beneath is a mockery of abundance and variety.
So my question is, since when did CHOICE become a liability?